Life is good
Now Playing: Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria
Ok. So I guess I can't update from my house, so I'm stuck with just updating at school which means I won't be able to update as much as I would like to. Tonight is the Sadie Hawkins dance, but even though I want to go to it, it seems like not that many people at least in our grade are going to it. I can't really complain though because I'm going with Sheena. Anyway, I've had an up and down week but that means that now that I've gone through a short depression thing, I'm riding high again on the fumes of life. I love saying that, becaus it refers to drugs so yeah. I don't have much to say because my life is finally moving into a smoother rhythm. Well, except for Sheena having to go to volleyball all the time, which makes it hard for us to find time together, but I still support her a lot. I also need to find a job and hopefully I can go on the Japanese trip, but if I don't get a job and if I can't find some help in paying for it, I don't think I'm going to try and go. I love the holiday season, and I have a good feeling about this month.

I need to update more
Now Playing: Remember to forget by Emphatic
I'm starting to think that I need to update this more because otherwise I have to constantly add these really long updates. Anyway, the weekend went without a hitch and I've had a pretty normal week. I need to turn in my application to Ace Hardware soon before its too late. I'm glad that my life is finally starting to fall into something of a normal rythm compared to the previous rollar coaster ride.

Tonight I'm going to watch the Coheed and Cambria concert on MTV, and I suggest that anyone who likes rock should watch it too. Then, tomorrow is Turkey Day!!!! Friday I get to relax some more, and I hope I don't get much homework over the weekend. Then Friday night I'll hopefully be going over to Ryan's to spend the night and then I might be going to Justin's party Saturdat night. Then Sun. is just some more relaxing and maybe hanging out with friends. I need to remember to get a cd to Sarah this weekend too...

I think I may actually be getting used to things again, but nothing will ever be the same or will anything ever be what I hoped. Remember these words of advice:

"Your life is not something that it is SUPPOSED to be or something someone ELSE wants it to be. Your life is what YOU want it to be"

I hope everyone has a great weekend,
Stefan

Crazy Life
Now Playing: Lucky by Hoobastank
It has been a very long week, and I can't wait for the weekend. Monday was allright, but Tues. I had to get up at 6, but my caffine kept me going through the day. I only was dissapointed when my parents told me I couldn't go to the mall Wed.

So, Wed. I also had to get up early (6) and then I went through a rather uneventful day followed by a very boring night besides learning that going to the mall Thurs. is a possibility and that I get to drive Thurs. as long as I cleaned my car off. Of course, when I do clean it off I end up giving myself bloody knuckles that still hurt today. Wed. night was also pretty dissapointing because I didn't get to talk on the phone for very long and when I did it wasn't much talking.

Anyway, Thurs. finally started to make my week better even though I had to wake up early again. I had my good ole Mountain Dew to wake me up, but that didn't last very long because I fell asleep in World History. Then I went to the mall Thurs. night and had a lot of fun. "Please have fun with our strawberry gummies" Yeah that was funny candy. But, I don't think I needed those candies even though they insisted that I needed their help. (Inside story/joke don't ask).

Friday morning was interesting because I knew today would be a good day (at least I'm hoping). However, my car freaked out on me by dying when I was crossing Highway 31!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't believe that it actually quit on me after I had already warmed the engine up. Anyway, I think my plans are to go to Red Lobster tonight followed by seeing Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire!!!!. I might stop by the bowling alley tonight also, so I can say bye to Joey. Then I'm hoping that we can set things up so that I can go to the movies Sat. with Sheena because we said we wanted to see Harry Potter together about two months ago, and I really hope we do.

Anyway, this is a really long post beacuse I've been very busy and I wanted to say everything thats been going on. Harry Potter will be the best movie of the year, even if they do mess it up a little (which I'm sure they won't). Bye yall!!!

Stefan

Weird Weekend
Now Playing: Learning to Breathe by Switchfoot
Well, after the long 3 day weekend I'm exhausted and I don't even want to think about school. Friday I was in Lincoln all day long for State Volleyball, and then I went to the Husker game and State Volleyball games Sat. The Volleyball game was a dissapointment though.

I have been in the weirdest moods this weekend ranging from extrememly happy to very bothered and not understanding myself. I forgot to mention that Thursday night we had a going away dinner for Joey :(. Then some of us went to the mall to wait for our movie to start and then we all went over to the theatre. We saw Prime, and it was pretty funny (well Steph and Kylie added a lot to the comedy) The ending was sad though.

Sunday was a good day for me. I started it out by relaxing and doing homework, and I was going to help my dad at our church's pancake feed but he got done early. Then I went to Sheena's later to hang out which finally fixed the thoughts I had been having saturday. (don't ask because I won't tell).

Anyway, I hope I get some time to read and clean my desk this week because I just need to rest and catch up on sleep this week. Harry Potter comes out on Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stefan

Starting over
Now Playing: View from Heaven by Yellowcard
Well, so much for that blog. I have gotten in trouble for using blogs so much that I think I'm just going to stop using them, but I need somewhere to vent my feelings. Maybe I just need to write again. My story has been put on hold for quite awhile but I've been itching to start it again.

My world has been shooken up so much that I don't think I can walk straight anymore. Many of my friends are coming to me with their problems thinking that I can give them great advice, but I never have been good at that. They also must think that my life is fine because I have a great girlfriend, but my life isn't as grand as it seems and very few people understand that. I'm trying as hard as I can to give people the attention they need but I'm streching myself very thinly and sometimes forgetting other people. I hope I don't have to keep going on like this because my mind will just shut down and won't be able to start again until it gets a break.

Another reason I got rid of the other posts is because one got me in trouble, and also because someone in particular just got her computer back and will be able to read this if she can get it working.